Can't sleep, there's a go to song for that.

I can't sleep. I caught a mean ole case of the flu, swollen ankles and fingers. Hahaha life you always surprise me. I shouldn't be so shocked. I fell on my ass a couple of times. Trying to be a badass mofo in four inch stilettos but ended up looking like a basic mess. So there's one answer to my petty questions and I'm sick from all the exposure to people who are sick and walking around in a dress in the fucking cold.I fell asleep with my sister's rings on and didn't even think of taking it off. When I woke up my finger swelled up four sizes bigger. My hand went from effortlessly chic to sausage fingered freak. I tried everything from boiled water, hair serum, olive oil and tinfoil till my family seized and decised the issue. Once I heard the word ER. My eyes were teary eyed and the inner damsel in distress in me was seeping through. Luckily, thanks to a pair of handy pliers. The hunk of metal was off. So now I'm here blogging about it. Here's the link to the song I have been falling asleep to. I'm not I'm just daydreaming about boys or well a boy in particular.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxKtVmoyJZQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player

The blunders, woah's and troublesome' s of an overdramatic way too sensitive, antisocial sixteen yr old.

Woah. Pretty long title. That must mean only one thing it's late night and I'm vulnerable. Saturday was my cousin's fifteen. I tried my best to muster the courage to keep myself out of trouble but it always seems to linger into my life. After a week of searching,preparing, and wishful making-up. I was still so, unprepared for the day that was laid right ahead of me. I found the right dress after countless trips to department stores,being three sizes too small and all the crying that took place in such said department stores. Gaahhhdd I even got my makeup done by a pro. It was so cool. Like Karla, she hates me and that's not fair. I'm allowed to hate you I'm an angsty teen with a set of mood swings and chronic bitchface. I can't help it of scenarios in my head make my face frown vut she she can't she's an adult. With a job, responsibilities, and whatever adults have to do. So, why are the roles revered. I've had enough trouble and all I wanna do is file the cracks I've made to make my life a little smoother. So would it kill you if you could be civilized. Throughout the day little one-liner questions would reappear in my mind. Almost, as if it were on command. They were all bitter short and nothing more than little jelousy reminders. That I wasn't included into any of the activities that came with being in a fifteen. I didn't get to bond and get closer. I knew if I weren't in the court, that all of us would drift apart but see the thing about drifting is that it's not drifting if nothing was there to slowly tear apart. I mean all my relationships with them are built around my pathetic attempts at creating a strong, close, group of people. Something was in the air and it wasn't the confetti. Unless, it was doused in moody personalities than yes, that was in the air. I should really get over these people. Which is way better thought off on paper than in real life. Maybe if I weren't such a loser, I wouldnt care at all. Maybe if I had a life of my own I wouldn't depend on family parties for social outings.
It's hard and I can't get over it but why does everyone hate me? I get it I'm bitter and mean but I'm also really nice and there still hasn't been an inbetween established between both those things. I'm either really nice and have a care overload or don't care at all

  With all the cumbia's, rancheras,and the random ass cuts of Criss cross songs in between takes. It's safe to say the dj sucked ass. So hey, here's the link to the song that sure as hell would have livened up night if it was on blast. (:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=feA64wXhbjo&feature=youtube_gdata_player

It's official I've been out of school for so long that I can't even hold a conversation down without being utterly boring. A seven year old has more wits and beauty than I do. * groans* have I fallen so hard? That this seven year old is essentially cooler than me and knows more math than me. I'm so boring I  make myself bored UGHH. I'M Living ny days in reverse instead of forward I stay up all night and sleep all day. My eyes,sanity, and weight has taken a huge hit. I want to crawl and dig a deep hole so far down that no one can find me too bad I'm already living it

( that's me all right I look like complete crap this is what staying up all night and not going to school does to you, and there's the way adorable seven year old)

Misadventures in losing weight

>I started running hahahaha nooo if running were a loose term for panting, and almost tripping on everything. Then, yes I totally ran, I ran so much!!!!! Ugh
It's my second day, of just strolling around the neighborhood like, some tourist. I saw this one chick running she was actually pumped and up. She had the whole neon ensemble,blasting music and zoomed off at every corner. I looked like a sad sack of black fabric. I am so out of touch with humanity. This one older woman yelled "  GOOD MORNING"! To me well being me,I thought she was speaking in a foreign toungue. So I ignored it, I'm such a doucheface. It's only common courtesy and here some dumbass sixteen yr old ignoring it. What a bitch!

-Latez

Btw I got my cousins invite to her party. After, someone " forgot" to give it to us. Accident, no doubt if that. Ahh family drama
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAE-_zCKyr0&feature=youtube_gdata_player

The dirty Heads!

not the first day of the semester

So, as everyone one was groaning and slouching the hallways away this Monday morning. As f-bombs were flying and mouths were drooling I was off far far away in the land of.. oh who am I kidding I was dead ass asleep in my bed, yo YEAH NEW YEAR SAME POSITION!!
its been four months F O U R mon. since I left school in Oct. to catch up on failed classes. I'm still not in enrolled in school fyi. I'm pretty sure my writing looks like chicken scratch at this point and any logic that remains in my brain is slowly but surely churning out mush. Ive been on late night tumblr binges,its gotten so bad I've exceeded my post limit. I'm here watching reruns of clever shows wishing for new developments and some witty writer to plot out the rest of my life

Day 2

Overly Saturated Photos are my fav.

Here's day 2. of just roaming the streets of noho and hanging out at the local elementary like total bums,anywhoo heres some of the photos we took.

Yes, we traded clothes from the day before.

lovechild

In, typical Amy fashion what would a photo op. be without her and a tree

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For pure aesthetics I couldn't smell a damn thing.

duh! i'd rather make stupid duckfaces then, actually taking a decent photo

generic emo forum pose #3

One of my "not resolutions" was to write,blog, and keep journels. So far, I haven't written/typed a damn thing. I have lots to post up tmrw.well actually today is Sunday so

Till later I 'll leave you with a GIF of jigsaw falling. It never fails to keep me laughing.

Ready to start

A new year, new chapter, hopeful endeavours...

I got my first reality check. I want to do as much as I can this year. I want to work on myself, my writing, my schooling. Put more effort in the little things like wardrobe, relationships, attitude. I really wanna get myself into reading. I wanna start all over, be prepared to fall. Clean up the mascara that'll run down my face whenever something unsightly happens. I wanna go to the movies this year, I wanna date, I wanna be fun and flirty. I wanna do everything because I'll be damned if I spent another year crying in a corner. Desperate for attention now I'm suffering the consequences, I managed to screw up 3 relationships. In one night all while wearing an lbd in the freezing cold. Now I can't even breathe without feeling all crummy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwdUVjyxWrM&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Twas The Evening for theatrics: the start of something old.

Happy New Years!!!! Wwoooh
New year new me. Sike!
I took a wrong turn that lead to misfortune events. Here's how it started. My day was pretty typical however, my small little spark turned into roaring flames. I went into my uncles house thinking tonight will be drama free. It'll be good and better than last year's. Hahaha NO. I walk in and already feel awkward. Oh, so I didn't tell you guys. So, after sending text after text after text, to my cousin. I get no response but when I send her a juicy text about my love life on instant she replies. It was a total bust. It was an utter complete lie. If I did have new developments in that department the last person I'd be squealing to about it would be her. So anyways. I walk in through the door. I hear her and my other cousin screams" WHERE'S YOU'RE BOYFRIEND" for the rest of the family to hear. I was embrassed.but at the same time shocked that no one cared but those two. For the next two hours they kept badgering me about this " boyfriend" who's existence only took place in my imagination. I will forever be jealous of Gabriella Montez. Curse her for just so happening meeting her one and true love dreamy Troy Bolton. I have always compared myself to her. But I'm not falling in love at a karaoke night any time soon *sighs* and I wonder why my views on love are so distorted. Point is it just comes to show they're true character. They only want me so they can have a new topic. They're not interested in anything but, the latest hot gossip. Assholes, right? What do I expect if a guy looks at one of them. They make a huge spectacle of it and because my other cousin is mad at me. For reasons unknown he's fourteen and I'm turning seventeen wtf should I care? When it's family its so much harder to shrug off. I was sitting in a corner blogging the night away. No big new years kiss no sparkly crap just normal crap. Right when the clock hit midnight I ran outside and cried behind the garage. In the freezing cold, making calls and blasting simple man by lynrd skynrd. While my cousins went to 711. After that I just stayed on the phone the whole night dialing whoever would listen. Then. It becomes 2 and my cousin starts saying " where were you weve been looking everywhere" all dramatic too! In the middle of the street without shoes. Nice! When it comes to cheap theatrics we are  number one! I wanted to leave the drama in 2012 but damn. It followed me. It upsets me how last year when were all together. We were all in a group standing, laughing at eachother. Prepared to take on the new year as a new family. We were on bike rides, going to 711 sneaking out of the house. Now you have me crying in a corner in the cold and them doing all of that stuff without me. I can't be doing this anymore. For the sake of my sanity im cutting them out of my life. I mean we don't have to be friends we can be aquaintances. Right?
God, its me Jessica! I just hope everything, is alright

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXkm6h6uq0k&feature=youtube_gdata_player