last bits of today/ social meltdowns

    I'm not popular on the social netwrok universe, I don't have over a thousand " friends" or followers, Shit, even if you combined all my followers from every network i'd fall short into the 900's. I dont know why its sucha big deal or why its important. It feels like i never left high school and popularity has taken new heights. I don't know why i've been constantly refreshing my facebook feed knowing no one messages me. Im just lonely and really, bad at doing so, im so scared of 17. I JUST DONT WANT MY BIRTHDAY. ITS GONNA SUCK AND IM GONNA CRY AND I HATE IT JUST GO AWAY. Can i fast-forward to Friday. Tosave myself from the pain and agony. NOTHINGS CHANGED AND I WANNA CRY